What's in a Name

Hmm .. July was a long time ago ... so here's a new update :P

What an *interesting* weekend! My life is never boring - let's put it that way.

Went down to visit my friends and had a great time. We saw 300! WOO! Fabulous movie! Then spent Sunday gaming a bit, hit up the mall and then went out to dinner. Didn't sleep much all weekend, but thats ok - thats what the work week is for.

This weekend got me thinking ...

I have AWESOME Friends that support me in all my crazy schemes and love me unconditionally

I have a new class that I enjoy :) And I AM going to compete and I AM going to practice ... I just have to get my schedule under control! but damn it - i AM going to do it - I NEED to do it :) TKD!!!

I think I may start gaming again ... it makes me excited to think about it - i just get nervous about it absorbing my life again. But we will see. I want to meet people and this IS an interest of mine - so we shall see :)

And work - well - as I was once told - you work to support your hobbies. Work is just a job that enables you to do the things you love ...

I have a great life and I even have people to share it with ... what more could a girl want? (except more sleep time ... ) :P



I have FRIENDS

I have people who LOVE me

I have a fantastic FAMILY

I am finding new HOBBIES

I am going to suceed ... I am going to be what I want to BE (in the ARMY .. j/k)

*loves*

And!! I have HKMLS! ;) mwahaha

Quick update -

I'm currentlky living in Philadelphia, PA! Moved here June 18th and have been working and working out ever since :)

Well, sort of working out. I walk 15 minutes to and from work every day and also walk all around the city, unless I hop public tansit.

I'm still with my company and am learning all sorts of new and interesting things. I still have boxes staked in the house that NEED to go to storage badly, but I have not the means to do so yet.

And now, I think Im going to head to CVS and the cafe to do a bit of reading and writing in peace with the public. hehe

I know, its not a huge entry, but my brains a swirling, and Im not sure what to say.

Life got a bit worse before it got better; but it's LOADS better now - so YAY! hehe

Laters ya'll!!

~T

So my Mom was married for the second time this weekend. I was the Maid of Honor and Shawn, he was my escort and stood on stage with us all. My mom was beautiful, and Richard so very handsome. I wrote them a heartfelt prose piece and a poem/speech that I read at the toast. I was able to see my whole family - both my Mom's and step dad's and it was wonderful. Shawn made me laugh and smile the whole day and I began to realize for the hundreth time just how happy he makes me. How much fun we have and how crazy that boy is and how he helps me let loose and just have fun.

He also told Em a bunch of sweet things and some of those she shared with me ... it just made me smile even more :) And glow ... and made me think of my own wedding day. You know, I've not ever really thought of my own wedding ... never thought of what I'd want, or anything. Really the only thought I ever had was that it would be a HUGE reception since I have 4 families to invite for just my side ...

And ... it was just a wonderful weekend home, and a time that I was able to share with Shawn and that, that was amazing.

Now Im exhausted and need to get to work early for a breakfast function for 200 people! AHHH! lol

YAY!!! LOL not ...

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Three words that have been swirling through my tired brain today, this weekend, and this past week. What is my vision? What are my goals? Where did my focus go?

After talking to two of the (3-5) people that know me best, I have divised this semi plan.

Long term I would like to obtain the following jobs in this order:

within the next 6-9months - Conference Planner
Within the next 3-5 years - Conf. Planning Director
Within the next 5-7 years - Director of Operations

After that, or while doing all that I would like to look for a place to potentially open my own cafe/restaurant/bookshop. I need change - I know this about myself, I also know that I cherish stability. It is always an internal struggle with me and it pops up every 3-6 months. Life will be going along fine and then one or two changes will occur and its fine, I iron them into the routine, but when things start to change a lot or when I lose my focus, things get all outta whack again. I didn't notice this as much in school, but I guess experience is the best thing to learn from. I knew just a few days ago what was happening, at least I recognized the signs in my physical, emotional, and mental state. Putting together all the reasons took a little longer, but now that I recognize whats going on - I can work to fix it.

Shawn thinks that a change of company (business wise) would be good for me. I believe it may be a good idea, but not just yet. I want to stay with ARAMARK for at least another year or 2 ... then I will see what happens. Unless of course, something happens now and I have an opportunity to take.

After that I still want to try for director of Ops, just so I will know how to run a whole facility opporationally, then I will be all set to own and run my own business. I know it seems all so cut and dry from this little outline, but at least I have that.

And as my friends mentioned, if you concentrate on your own job, the promotions will come - because your team will shine for you (because of you) & you need change, and I'm more of a macro person than I believed... I knew/know that I am, but I forget that at times ...

My vision, to create the best team possible to get the job done right, before the client even asks ...

I had a dream last night about graduation. Tracy, Jason, Josh R, Kristin, Heather, Aubry(?), Jeremy, Danielle (from SNHU),Rusty, Jason Grant(?), manda C ... and a bunch of others were there. People from all times in mypast. The girls weere in white robes, the boys in navy blue. We went all around and then were seated in this huge auditorium. We watched this slide show thing and as it was going on, everyone was leaving. Finally it was just a few people for the ceremony, and no one was going to go get their diplomas - they just kept leaving. It was at this point that I saw Kristin, eyes all red and puffy from crying and it was then that I started to realize i would possibly never see these people again. They were all going their own ways.

A few moments later I was sitting again, trying to throw my robe on because it was time to go down to get my diploma. Something happened and there is Mum and I, sittting in the stands and the woman is there holding out this plater like thing with an orange flower, kinda 70's ish in style, and says do you swear by this? Hold your hand over it and then trace your initials over a door. I didnt quite understand the Door part, but I held my hand over the book and asked for happiness and success for my career from the education I received. Then I traced my initials and she started to move on to the next person. She did one other person then came back and took and knob on the side of the "book" thing, turned in and pulled. Suddenly two secret passages were opened and two small charms fell to the floor. She thouht only one came out and when she handed me the one, she said this is .... this is .... yours (something to do with a message from your Angel?) As she started to move along there came some confusion because the other people saw the 2nd fall out too. When they handed it to her, the woman said, and this is your guardian animal. The first charm was a parrot, and the second a porcupine. At first I couldnt tell, but the more I looked at the almost flat, yet 3 dimentional figures (no bigger that an inch long) there was AMAZING detail. They were small, light weight wood, and yet the quills could move if "fluffed" a bit. Mum thought they were amazing in their detail as well, and kept telling me not to move them. The eyes of the porcupine were awesome too - in their small carved detail. The figures could not have been more than 1/8 of an inch thick, if that. The parrot was more one sided, and I did not look it over as much, because the porcupine seemed more important.

After that I started to wake up ....

I have a feeling it was a message of some sort. That I must start moving on from all that in my past. That they are leaving as well, living their own lives, and now its time for me to go my own way too. I stayed around to make sure I got what I needed, and saw the others go, and now its ok for me too as well. There will be some tears, but its time for something new. And as for the book with secret doors and the figures ... Im not quite sure. Maybe I talk too much and I can get spiny? lol

Any thoughts?

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strong, generous, gentle, and comforting. NO
ONE can make you do anything you dont want to
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is until someone bugz you, then , WATCH OUT FOR
THOSE HORNS!! You are a practical earthy sign,
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-your colors are green for the earth on which you
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-your metal is copper

-your precious stone is emerald

-your day of the week is friday

-the parts of the body that you rule are the throat
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Dear Tia,
Here is your horoscope
for Thursday, August 18:

Feel like a thoroughbred stuck in a race with a bunch of newborn colts? It might be time to take yourself into a level of competition that matches your skills. You know you're ready.


And this comes after I was told that my name has been mentioned for possible promotion ... *GLEE*

So I saw mariah tonight! For about 1 seconf I was less than 5 feet away. She was the guest of honor at a B96 bash at the Harrison.

more on it later - but I must say she's kinda short and absolutely gorgeous :)

Right now I've been up for almost 22 hours and I worked my ass off today - so Im going to crash ... I promise - more details later.

NIGHT! kutjfgjfjn cmmn,..............

It takes a certain type of person to tolerate and to even find joy and pleasure and satisfaction from the hospitality industry. And I know I am that kind of person - this week is the proof. Usually I do not mind the crazy hours or the insane clients - but my god, this week ... here let me share my week with you:

Monday - 12 hours
Tuesday - 14 hours
Wednesday - 11 hours
Thursday - 12.5
Friday - estimated 19 hours

Thats 49.5 hours by thursday and an estimated 68.5 hours this week. And this isn't desk work. Nooo this is running. And carrying tables and chairs and being the A tech. This is getting frantic calls at HOME at 10pm from clients sying, "you have me in the wrong room with the wrong set-up - FIX IT by 7am!!" when I have to be AT work at 6am anyway. This is doing the schedule, doing ordering, calling teammates at home, making last minute changes ALL WEEK (b/c of crazy clients) and helping my team all day because the work load is really for about 4 ppl, and I only HAVE 2 am and 2 pm people.

So yes, it takes a special kind of person to do this and not crack. Sometimes I wonder if anyone really understands the hospitality industry if they don't have that passion and have never really step foot in a full service hotel/restaurant. Because as much as I might complain - it also gives me a high when I know Im doing, and I know Im doing it RIGHT. ... and honestly - I am ;)


Off to work - Im almost running late!!

Oh and JOY!! I'm averaging $7.83/hr this week - gotta love salaried management!!!

Dear Tia,
Here is your horoscope
for Thursday, August 11:

You've got major resources at your disposal -- major inner resources. Concentrate on how to access those, and you just might find that some outward circumstances shift to accommodate you.


I don't usually put much stock in horoscopes, but if this one has any meaning st all, I hope the Lord and Lady are helping me out. I have a few things I need to figure out and straighten out ...


Back to work .... 60+ hrs this week, I can feel it!!

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Out of all the results - this does seem to fit best!

Dear Tia,
Here is your horoscope
for Monday, August 8:

A few people have their eyes on you, all for different reasons. Someone thinks you'd make the perfect sweetheart. Someone else wants to move you on up at work. It's all up for grabs if you want it.



Hmm .. promotion? added responsibility? And whose looking at me now!?! lol Life sure does go through interesting stages ... hehe

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people usually dont hang out with you with your
magic talk, but your friends are usually closly
knit. you are mestyrious people dont know much
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eyes to represent the mystery in yourself. Her
hair is extremly long and black.she enjoys
doing magic ritchuals (wich actually work in
the anime world!) and knows how to use
Telekinesis. she uses the moon charts in her
room to know when to do her rituals and has a
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who love magic like her. shes not a goth but
fits into dark category. you like to associate
with the lively anime because they have
something inside them to relate to you...
Favorate Magical Creature: Basalisk (giant
snake) Animal:Cobera Gem:black pearl
Element:Electricity Weapon of Choice: none! you
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Dear Tia,
Here is your horoscope
for Friday, August 5:

Holding a grudge? Well, put it down -- your arms must be exhausted from gripping onto it for so long! Once you do manage to lay down your resentment, you'll be astonished at how light you feel.



Hmm work? Personal? - doesn't matter, because in both, I feel SO much better now :)

YAY!! I've LOST weight and INCHES!!!

Starting weight (July 11): 267.5
Current Weight (Aug 4): 258.5

Waist: 4 inches lost
Hips: 1 inch lost
Thighs: 1 inch lost
Lower Ab: 1 inch lost
Bust: 1/4 inch lost
Bicep: 1/4 inch GAIN
Calf: same

I know it's only 9 lbs in a month ... but I was also SICK for 2 weeks, and the medicine I was on made me an eating machine!! But I ate healthy foods, veggies & fruits. Cut back on the meats and fats, and drank GALLONS of water. So it paid off!

Today I was finally well enough to work out and I did my 3 sets of 40 crunches (20 reg & 20 w/ hesitation)
20 "all the way ups" with the yoga ball
12-15 leg lifts with the yoga ball (lower ab exercise)
3 loops on the circuit (1 full workout)
20-25 minutes on the treadmill at 3.2-3.5 mph

And I feel GREAT!! I wasn't expecting to lose weight yet, as I thought I was just eating too much when I was sick - but I DID!! YAY!!!


*does the super happy dance!*

I don't normally ask for help ... but I feel as though it's time for me to reach out and ask.

I need to DO something with my life. I have been holed up again to long ...

Any ideas of what a person with my interests could do with her extra time? (reading, fantasy, martial arts, Earth-based Religion, spirituality, backstage Theater stuffs, sexuality, counceling, tutoring ... etc - the list goes on and is rather varied)

I need ideas that will get me out of the house and meeting people ... GOOD people not BAR people ...

Any ideas? Also, I live an hour North of Chicago and I find its hard to get myself motivated to get down there .. although after a recent call to a friend - lol that may change. It's amazing how friends can motivate people ... lol

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Let's do a REAL update ... shall we?

The History of the IllnessThe weekend of July 16th I went to Boston to attend the wedding of one of my roommates from college. It was great trip - I got to see some Boston Friends and some SNHU friends and had a great time. The trip home was a bit of hell as I was stuck overnight in NYC and ended up spending about $150 I didn't REALLY have. That night I got upset with Shawn a bit and that started a mini spiral in me - a wake up call of sorts to my own behavior.

When I got back I felt a little under the weather, but didn't think anything of it. Either Tuesday or Wednesday Shawn came down to see me and I felt like crap - cold, feverish, and tired! And I was coughing a bit. No keep in mind I sat on a plane on the ground for a good ... 4-6 hours total!! Nasty recycled air ... </lj>

( The Progression of said ickiness )

( Dr's orders to stay HOME for 5 days!!! )

( Recouperation with my Hunny )

But I feel better mentally now. I feel more able to tackle what I'm thrown and Im ready to jump in and do it all again. I learned a few things from this whole experience.

1. That work does go one without me
2. My health is most important - more important than work
3. My BF loves me tremendously, and I need to take those moments to relish in it
4. When I take those moments - the world stands still and all is at PEACE
5. My house will NEVER be 100% clean, but doing laundry at home does have its benefits ... *will keep this in mind in the future*
6. Prendazoine (sp?) (drug) makes me VERY hungry ...
7. Health food really isn't that bad
8. Cooked veggies are edible when stir fried with chicken and eaten with brown rice ... hehe

So now ends my HUGE post ... but Im glad to have chronicled it all here ... it shall be a good reminder to my crazy self in the future ...

Thanks for reading and please do stop by again ;)

~*~ Doors open to the left, please take all your belongings and nasty germs with you~*~ hehe mwahahaha

the Idiot Savant (30% dark, 56% spontaneous, 44% vulgar)

your humor style: VULGAR | SPONTANEOUS | LIGHT You like things silly, immediate, and, above all, outrageous. Ixne on the subtle word play, more testicles on fire, please. People like you are the most likely to RECEIVE internet forwards--and also the most likely to save them in a special folder entitled 'HOLY SHIT'. Because it's so easily appreciated, and often a little physical, your sense of humor never ceases to amuse your friends. But most realize that there's a sly intelligence and a knowing wink to your tastes. Your sense of humor could be called 'anti-pretentious'--but ironically, that definitely indicates you're smarter than most. PEOPLE LIKE YOU: Johnny Knoxville - Jimmy Kimmel

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 9% on dark You scored higher than 76% on spontaneous You scored higher than 76% on vulgar

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